aBsTrAcT

2009-06-30T10:16:00.001-07:00

Setu babakan

2009-06-30T10:15:00.001-07:00

One of setu (lake) located on south Jakarta, used as reservoir as same as recreation site..

Hape, stabilitas nasional dan tali tambang

2009-04-11T10:28:00.001-07:00

G nyangka,ternyata biar g da kmptr sekalipun hasrat gw wat bikin oret2an kesampean juga, baru ngeh kalo gw ada aplikasi notepad di wilma kesayangan gw, tgl si jempol aja yg siap2 kapalan n mdh2an keypad si wilma tahan banting hehehe..

Ok kali ni gw pgn bikin coretan,bisa dibilang tuntutan hati gw yg lagi gundah gulana (jiah).

Hmmm bingung mw mulai dari mana, tapi satu hal yg gw inget.. Ternyata rasa sakit yg biasa kita alamin bisa berubah jd nikmat, sensasinya itu loch bener2 sensasional banget.. Dan sesuatu yang kita anggap awalna cuma sekedar angin lewat bisa berubah jadi angin surga beneran atau malah jadi angin puting beliung..

Yapz itu yg gw inget banget dari apa yg gw alami belum lama ni.

Memang awalna cuma sekedar rasa tertarik,tapi lebih lanjut muncul rasa penasaran.. Nah model kayak gw gini kalo dah kena ma yg namanya penasaran bener2 d bisa kebawa ampe mimpi.. Kalo di ibaratin orang beli hp, awalna tertarik karena tampilan dan atw karena fiturnya.. Tapi wat sebagian orang,tmasuk gw,g cukup sampe situ,begitu bener2 ngerasa oke bgt ma ni hp,langsung d dicari tau plus minusnya,potensi2 yg ada.. Semuanya muncul karena ada motivasi wat ngilangin rasa pengen tau yg begitu kuat, sampe akhirna lewat fase2 itu dan bener2 ngerasa pw ditemenin ma tuh hape.. Baru d kondisinya bisa diibaratin udah mencapai stabilitas nasional.

Tapi kalo belum sampe tahap stabilitas nasional,atw malah msh dlm tahap pengenalan,tiba2 itu hape menghilang dari pasaran,hilang bener2 hilang,g ada jejaknya.. waduh bener2 d bisa terjadi chaos, merusak keamanan, kenyamanan dan pastinya stabilitas nasional tadi.. Tiba2 ngerasa kosong, blong, blank, empty..

Meskipun orang2 bilang,masih bnyk tipe hp yg laen yg t'sedia,tapi tetep aja,rasanya berbeda, rasa penasaran yang udah terfokus ke satu titik tadi, that's the problem,kenapa harus satu titik, kenapa g menyebar.. Apa emang karena ni sifat bawaan gw? Atw gw perlu dapet training khusus, weleh weleh, milih hape ja ko repot hehehe..

Tapi y itulah keadaannya, terkadang kita punya pilihan opsi yang banyak, tapi g jarang opsi2 t'tentu yg malah milih kita..

Kalo gtu keadaannya mw gmana lg? Y dinikmatin dlu d rasa penasaran yg ngambang, sampe akhirnya fokus gw bisa kembali terbang, dan jangan ampe d malah nyangkut di tali tambang hehehe..

Beauty of indo nesia

2009-03-10T09:11:00.001-07:00

Beauty of indonesia

2009-03-10T08:58:00.001-07:00

Gambarna gw ambil dari dalem mobil yg jalan mw balik ke jakarta.. Makin cinta dengan alam :D

Pasar cikajang

2009-03-10T08:53:00.001-07:00

Indonesia banget lah pokokna..

Beauty of Indonesia -garut

2009-03-10T08:50:00.001-07:00

Lokasi jalur cikajang - pameupeukan, salah satu daerah pertanian palawija dan sayuran di Garut

Road to garut 2

2009-03-10T08:47:00.001-07:00

Road to garut

2009-03-10T07:30:00.001-07:00

Bubur ayam

2009-02-20T22:53:00.001-08:00

2009-02-04T20:22:00.001-08:00

Islamic mission city view

2009-02-04T20:21:00.001-08:00

Islamic mission city cairo

2009-02-04T20:11:00.001-08:00

Place where i spent 7 years of my life in egypt, 4/02 - 2/09

Tanpa Judul

2008-11-21T23:49:00.000-08:00

Mencari inspirasi emang gampang-gampang sulit. Kadang klo lagi dicari suka g dateng, tapi giliran lagi bengong tiba2 langsung pengen buru-buru duduk depan komputer, buka notepad n bikin oret-oretan...

Tapi ngomongin soal inspirasi, pasti donk g lepas sama yang namanya sumber inspirasi, source of inspiration or something that inspires bahasa sok mantapnya hehehehe... Bagi gw, sumber inspirasi gw sejauh ini adalah sebuah foto yang klo gw liat kesitu tiba2 perasaan gw kecampur aduk, antara seneng, sedih, bahagia tapi juga miris. Dan secara ajaib, ctek otak gw kayak dialirin arus listrik kecil yang mancing otot-otot motorik ditangan gw buat ngetik halah... dan barusan, gw baru banget ngelirik lagi poto itu, dan otomatis urutan kata-kata mulai kerangkai di notepad komputer gw, meskipun bingung pengen nulis apa, tapi perasaan yang kecampur aduk itu nuntut gw buat cari pelampiasan...

Mungkin g jauh-jauh, kali ini gw pengen coba sedikit berbagi cerita tentang seorang wanita, ya gw maksud wanita bukan cewek, yang bener-bener tegar ngadepin berbagai macam persoalan. Sosok wanita yang bener-bener tangguh, sabar dan bikin orang yang tau kondisi dia ngangkat topi buat kesabarannya...

Balik ke tahun 2001, awal pertama gw kenal sama dia. g ada yang aneh pas gw liat sekilas, orangnya ceria, senyumnya manis, dan kelihatan dia enjoy dengan hidupnya. Namun dibalik keceriaan dia, gw sering liat tatapan matanya yang ngeblank, tatapan kosong yang penuh harap. Dan awal mula gw mulai mengerti kondisi yang sebenernya ketika sore itu gw nelp dia, tadinya gw bayangin gw bakal denger suaranya yang indah, tapi ternyata yang gw denger diseberang sana suara isakan tangis yang tertahan... "Papa lagi ngamuk..." kata-kata itu terus terngiang diotak gw sampe sekarang, karena kata itu bisa dibilang kata kekecewaan yang pertama kali dia ungkapin ke gw, dan gw mulai sedikit menerka betapa kondisi berat yang diadepinnya...

Jujur, dengan background keluarga gw yang fine-fine aja gw g begitu ngerti tentang kondisi yang dia alamin, tapi sebagai anak pertama dalam keluarga, gw sedikit bisa menebak penderitaan macam apa yang gw alami klo gw diposisi dia. Hampir setiap ari dia ngalemin kejadian yang g bisa gw bayangin...

Bagi sebagian anak-anak muda sekarang, termasuk gw didalemnya, alternatif pelampiasan yang sering diambil itu ya klo g aktif jadi junker, minimal berubah jadi liar dijalanan buat ngekspresiin jiwa yang pengen berontak atas kondisi yang ada, tapi yang gw salutin dari dia, dia bisa bertahan dan dia g ambil alternatif itu, bahkan semua penderitaannya dicurahin ditetesan air mata yang tercurah tiap dia sujud.. sebuah tindakan yang paling bisa kita temuin di adegan-adegan sinetron lokal...

Dengan kondisi psikologi anak yang baru masuk pubertas, dengan keadaan jiwa yang belum labil, ditambah dengan kondisi lingkungan yang dia terima di dalam keluarganya, dia bisa mengambil tindakan yang g banyak orang, bahkan orang dewasa sekalipun, bisa lakuin. Kebencian terhadap sosok papanya hanya sekedar bias dari kecintaannya yang mendalam terhadap kedua orangtuanya, dan rasa sayang terhadap adek-adeknya. Gw g cuma sekedar salut, tapi gw jatuh cinta terhadap sosok seperti dia...

Selepas masuk masa kuliah, gw dapet kabar kalo dia akan menikah dengan seorang cowok yang punya background keluarga yang hampir mirip dengannya, hhhhhhh dengan berat hati gw cuma bisa berharap semoga penderitaan yang dia alami sedikit berkurang... tapi nyatanya apa yang dia alami, g lebih dan g kurang kayak pepatah keluar dari kandang macan masuk ke dalam mulut buaya... Ngga cuma disitu, anak pertama yang dia harapin bisa menjadi penghibur hatinya, ternyata harus pergi dari pelukannya karena kelahiran yang premature...

hhhhhhh, g abis pikir cobaan apa lagi yang akan dia terima, tapi yang bikin gw bener-bener hormat dengan sosok dia, dia tetep g berubah, semua penderitaan yang begitu berat yang dia alami, dia curahkan semuanya cuma kepada Yang Maha Mendengar, bahkan dengan kondisi fisiknya yang lemah dan ditengah kesibukannya mencari rezeki untuk menghidupi anak keduanya yang baru lahir belum lama ini, dia tetep bisa istiqomah dan bersabar. Semoga apa yang dia harapin, kebahagiaan yang dia impiin bisa terwujud jadi kenyataan...

pas ngereview tulisan ini, terkesan ada unsur eksploitasi yang terasa, tapi jujur tulisan ini g bermaksud untuk mengeksploitir penderitaan orang yang gw hormati. Bagi gw pribadi, gw jadi banyak belajar tentang arti kesabaran dan mengerti arti sebuah kesyukuran darinya...

facing the fact

2008-10-01T03:14:00.000-07:00

I don’t know how I get inspiration to write down some paragraphs I wrote below, I still confused. It just started at time I look in to some picture, I feel like something goes in my mind that tells me u should write something.

I remember someone tells me that everything we want not always we get, I accept what he/she told to me, I believe that what we own now actually is not belonging to us; it can be taken away from us anytime. But back then I get only theoretical logic, until there’s time when I lost my precious things that makes me almost lose everything yap I mean everything.

That crucial moment has passed away, my life back to normal again. I need some months to recover my pain from those losses. But I realized then, it was hard to face something that happen in reality and it so easy to play with theory in our head. Sounds so human isn’t it,,,

That picture reminds me every time I forget my lesson from that moment, like what it does this time. It’s telling me, you are not mine even if you have own me back then. Although I still feel kind a weird but perhaps it gives me strength to face forward since there’s no sin to look back for moment to refresh my lesson from that pain.

Thanks to that picture and someone who portrayed on it, which have gives me lot of lesson to face the bitterness of reality that I can’t imagine in theoretical terms.

Should I put "facing the fact" for the title?

learn to be Johnny English

2008-09-10T16:41:00.000-07:00

story in english, try to make some excercise in english subject… the author herebly says this story is only fiction, if there any coincident between story or someone’s life, the author is out of question about it

lets begin…
this is an old story with unexpected ending…
It was back then when i’ve graduated from junior high school i met someone who make me feel comfort and great… it started in administration office of our school. we got examination started at the day, but at the time i dont have any examination card which mean i can’t go to class yet… so i go through to the administration office to get that card.

I was so excited when i’ve arrive at admin office, i guess at first time maybe only me who doesnt have the examination card but then i found there’s some student too… so i spend my time talking with the other while we wait the officer making the card ready for us..
suddenly when we talking about preparation for the exam two of female student came to the office, at first glance they stop

their step at the door unexpecting us ofcourse, for your information in our school female and male student are separated in all way and it most hard thing to make contact between male and female student, it was our school decisions. so naturally they feels some kind of shy toward us.

Then i dont know where i have courage to speak up, since i usualy get nerveous when facing girls… i told them, but acctualy told to one of them, c’mon get in, dont be afraid of sarphay (one of my friend’s name) he doesn’t bitten anymore.. i get shocked when i saw her smiling, o God, is she your angel… i feel something strange filling my body, my heart beating hard for sudden making noise that my friends can hear it… speechless and blushing..

it was my first time, i saw her in my life… give me strange impressions, feels like i chained to her, hoho is this a love, soo blind, i dont know even who she is, what her name, i dont know anything bout her… unfortunately at that time, i didn’t get chance to ask her name or else..

i just called her, my mysterious girl from admin office haha.. sounds silly isn’t.. but what can i say, love makes us silly..

as time flews, i still thinking of her, who she is… i ask my friend bout those girl whose came to admin office, but nothings appear, i dont get any names yet.. i got curious.. until one day my friends asks me to get along with them to amusement park in city.. but no body know, one of my friend makes some arrangement to get date with his girlfriend, and she goes with her gangs. not my bussines i think, so i just enjoying the park with my friends. But then, i realized someone who looks familiar to me, but i dont know when i met her. her face is catching my eyes, i sure i’ve met her before, buti dont remember.

I ask my friend bout her, i got her name, where she lives and so on… i just think ah whatever i just need to forget the mysterious girl i’ve met.. two days later i make calls with her for first time. she gaves me a good signal, make me confident to say i wanna know more bout you, and she said alright let make a try…

my relation with her, the girl i met in amusement park, give me lot of sweet memory even the bitter feels sweet.. i even forget for a while bout the mysterious girl. until someday, we talk about our last exam in school and i got shocked, yeah probably guess what, she told me that she was went to admin office at first day of exam, and she even remember that i was told her to get in and dont be afraid of my friend…

ooo i can’t say anything.. i just think is this a coincident, or what.. my mysterious girl is her, i smile all day, that day was my lucky day ever.

***

after four months get together with her, my time to get study overseas has came. i remember how cloudy day it was.. it was my decision to go, i told her that i’ll be at her said always, i will and i was… year after year we make our relationship more interesting, sometimes there problem between us, but we can manage it in nice or sometimes in worse way, but we still get along together… i put my trust on her and i really treasure her in my heart.

in 6th year at my study overseas, i chat with her and using camera i can see her face still looking for me, her eyes tells me that she need me. I told her to be patient, only one year left and i’ll come to you directly, i dont want to get separated from you again. she was smiling at me, o God i can’t resist her smile haha…

yeah we was happy back then, until one day i got call from her… all of sudden she called me, told me that something urgent has happened, she said that she doesn’t deserve to have me.. what is it all about i ask her. sound like she cry i heard from the phone, then she tells me everything… about the problem on her house, then her friend, orange juice, sleeping pills, room and even more pregnant indicator..

O God, i dont know what to say, i feel like i lost everything that i have, i dont feel anything just hurt in every inch of my heart… what have i done, i lost someone who i really really ….

after month she get merried.. oo it feels so absurd for me, i still can’t accept it, hey man she is mine, she means a lot for me, and then you come from nowhere making a lot of trick to stacth her away from me…

6 months later i came back to my country in summer holiday.. when i arrive at home, i met her again, but this time i try to avoid her, i dont want both of us get hurt, couse in any and such way we can’t be together again, she is a wife of somebody..

even my self has strong intention to meet her but i try not make contact, but what can i do, i just a human being… one day i ask her to meet me in someplace, we talk a lot and i can tell she can’t accept what happened to our relationship too. I even come to her house and get warm acceptances from her family.. just like the old day but in different situation…

o God i dont know what must i do, it just seems like nightmare but i wanted it, i still want her but i can’t. on the way to my home i think really heard, making agreement between my heart and my logic, what suppose i do… what ever, but for meanwhile i need to go away from her, enough for me to watch her happy with her little family from far away, and when she need help i’ll give my hand for her in one or other way, but not in direct way for sure… but for now, let she lives her life without any presence of mine, or more than that maybe it will be
better if she hates me so she can accept her life at ease…

but for me, she still somoeone who i treasure most in this world, at least for this time, that why i wrote this what u can say diary of some old story…

to be continue… what next? any opinion?

Kuning telor

2008-06-27T16:05:00.001-07:00

Indah y..

Sun rise @ st catherine

2008-06-27T16:04:00.001-07:00

Sayang g sampe puncak,tapi untungna masih bisa begaya dibelakang sunrise

St. Catherine

2008-06-27T16:01:00.001-07:00

Salah satu objek wisata di mesir

Cpu cooler bru

2008-04-24T12:48:00.001-07:00

Nyampe kebawa mimpi gw pgn ganti cpu cooler,lumayanlah meskipun kagak segede jengkol tp lumayan wat dinginin yg panas-panas

Take a juice

2008-04-19T13:42:00.001-07:00

Iseng banget kan, ngapz coba mto2 gnian :D

Da PC

2008-04-12T13:27:00.001-07:00

Pc gw dikamar

No name

2008-04-12T11:01:00.001-07:00

Ngezoom abis

Night shot

2008-04-11T08:30:00.001-07:00

Lokasi : prapatan awal abbas

Tes cam driver

2008-04-10T14:08:00.001-07:00

Number1 7.56 Mixed edition,auto..

Lagee

2008-04-10T13:59:00.001-07:00

Hue..

alFath K800i

2008-04-10T13:58:00.001-07:00

He,kepikiran jga ngambil K800i pake W810na yakub

T610vsW810

2008-04-10T12:31:00.001-07:00

Se mania abis, sayang g bsa moto hp gw ndiri ???

Pelatihan MHMMD

2008-04-10T12:26:00.001-07:00

Platihan merancang masa depan brg marwah daud

Buuts fc

2008-04-06T01:34:00.000-07:00

Tim impian bgt,bentar lg masuk liga mesir hue.. mw bola kaki ampe bola voli,yg bhub ma bola ini ahlinya..

mahad buuts al-azhar

2008-04-06T00:55:00.001-07:00

Sekolah smu gw di cairo

Alexandria

2008-03-31T19:28:00.001-07:00

Poto brg amu basuki,anop ma yakub di prapatan dkt library of alexandria,ceritanya abis nyari makan diwarung getho

The executor

2008-03-29T18:20:00.001-07:00

Ni dia my beloved phone cam k800 dri se.. Saking sayangnya ampe 2 kali gw beli yg modelna kyk gni.. Yg pertama ilang diembat maling pas bulan ramadhan wkt gw lg nginep dikosan temen gw.. Yg kedua alhamd mampu ngebeli lagi and alhamd slama gw make puas abis d,mdh2an bs btahan smp jangka wkt yg lma bgt..:D
Hasil processing gambarna bsa dinikmatin disini,settingan yg gw pke kseringan auto coz emang gw hanyalah seorang amateur hehehe..
Btw ptonya diambil dikamar gw jam 3.18 pagi

pan maulid KPJ

2008-03-29T13:22:00.001-07:00

2 fatih

2008-03-29T13:17:00.001-07:00

Kanan fatihunada, kiri alfatih

Bdur

2008-03-29T11:55:00.001-07:00

Juara 2 lomba KDI (kontes dai impian) ala KPJ (keluarga pelajar jakarta) mesir

Jadul #1

2008-03-29T06:02:00.001-07:00

Sumpah cupu abis, pto anak2 wkt ke dupan g tw kpnnya yg jelas gw kagak ikut wkt ntu, hasil reproduksi jg..

Jadul

2008-03-29T05:41:00.001-07:00

Poto brg anak kelas waktu bru masuk pondok,kelas satu tsanawiyah,msh pada cupu hahaha.. Fotonya hasil reproduksi pk k800 doc scene..

Eisy and fuull

2008-03-28T12:40:00.001-07:00

Makanan utama wong misro, sarapan pake ful (yg dipiring) yg dicocolin eisy (roti mesir yg bulet) ditambah pake telor rebus plus ditemenin say (teh mesir) sumpah nampol abis dijamin langsung ngantuq lagi :D

Last test

2008-03-28T11:53:00.001-07:00

Akhirna bisa juga.. Btw ini blog wat nampung pto2 gw yg diambil pake se K800i, jangan heran kalo liat pto2 aneh coz ada niat jd ptograper abal-abal :D.
enjoy the picture deh klo gto

Masih ngetes

2008-03-28T11:39:00.001-07:00

Jeroan

test

2008-03-28T11:30:00.001-07:00

Test lg

uji coba

2008-03-28T11:25:00.000-07:00

hueheuheuehueue... tes satu dua tiga, niatnya bikin ini blog biar bisa langsung upload poto dari hp ke internet so we'll see deh gimana ntarnya...